An Unsent Letter to My Rapist

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I wish I could forget you. Your presence in my memory consumes me at times. In little moments, the triggers are there.

Even the simple act of blowing a kiss brings me back to your face.

And it crushes me.

I don’t know if I will ever move on from what you did. A very broken part of me is glad it happened because deep down, I believe that I deserved your abuse.